I don’t know what it is, but I get really emotional after shows. I don’t really know why.
Maybe it’s because I’m always really tired and worn out and voiceless after a show, and I don’t feel like doing anything but sleeping for 14 hours.
Maybe it’s because shows bring out the best in me and that’s when I really feel at home, so to speak, and in the presence of my Lord and worshiping the way I worship, with a ton of other sweaty guys and girls around me doing the same.
Maybe it’s because that connection between performer and participator that is met when the microphone gets put in front of my face and I start screaming even louder than I was along with the singer.
Maybe it’s because that is where I know I won’t be judged at all for doing what I love the most, by being who I really am, in front of so many people who have been through similar situations as me through their life, and find the escape they need in the music, in the blood, sweat, and tears that come with a show, in the stress that their vocal cords are under, and in the relief that after the show, we released all the emotions that needed to be and feel completely refreshed and renewed. I honestly feel like a completely new person and every negative feeling and emotion and thing that happened in the past is just gone and I am ready to start fresh and new after every show I’m at.
Shows are where I am home. Shows are where I am completely in the presence of God, worshiping the way I worship, with other kids my age, younger and older, and with those who inspire me so much by writing the lyrics and the music that push me to be better and make me think about life, God, my relationships, and my own inner self.
Show withdrawal is the worst, and it happens more than I would like. But here’s to tonight, and the next show I’ll be at, doing it all over again.
Me and Daniel at the Oh, Sleeper show on 11/14/11: